I thought the past few years was recovery from an eating disorder, when it actually was just completely falling into it, she told Ashley.
She went on to explain that she began over-exercising in the period before her overdose.
When you dont have people that know the signs around you like, what I think I really needed was someone to come in and saying like, Hey, I think you need to look into how much youre working out, like, maybe three times a day is excessive for working out, Lovato said. Like, there were days when I lived at the gym, and I would take business meetings at the gym on my breaks from my workouts. And Id be gross, but at least I didnt have to leave and shower and I could go right back into my workout. Id eat a meal, go workout, eat a meal, go workout. And its like, thats just not happiness to me, thats not freedom.
She also shared that she felt like she was trying to attain a body type that she just couldn't.
When you have certain people around you that are telling you certain things, that you should look a certain way, it makes it harder. So I was in that situationI was just running myself into the ground, and I honestly think thats kind of what led to everything happening over the past year, she said. It was just me thinking I found recovery when I didnt and then living this kind of lie, and trying to tell the world that I was happy with myself when I really wasnt.
Moving forward, Demi is making changes and plans to be more body positive.
"Someone needs to stand up for people who dont naturally look that way. Like I had to work my ass off every day at the gym six days a week to maintain that figure, and its just like, that led me only one way, and I dont want to go down that path again. So Im not willing to destroy my mental health to look a certain way anymore.
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