"Cheating on trust"

For years I have betrayed our love, our friendship and ourrelationship. For years I have kept you on the sidelines, while Iflirted around with frivolities as they came by. I was ready to bangany and anytime without second thoughts that such acts were eatingdeep into our friendship.I cheated on you like a cock, and at a point I pushed you out entirelywhile I entertained any glow that can satisfy my insatiable curiosityfor more. You caught me more than I can remember, yet you never gaveup on me. I remember walking out on you on several occasions when youprofessed your undying love for me. I cared less about your feelings,your emotions were like a waste in my trash can. Yet you never gaveup.Each time I cheated on you, you sent me a text reminding me of yourlove for me. Most of those texts I deleted without reading them. Eachtime I hung out with the wrong folk at the wrong place, you dialed me,but often times I ignored your calls; I screened them the moment I sawyour name. Most times when I felt you were disturbing my fun, Iswitched my phones off, but you always found a way of reaching me.You know my in and out, yet I cared less about you, who you are andwhat you can offer. I felt more safe in the romance of fellows thatyou always warned could ruin me.Amongst all my faults and betrayal of what we had you stayed by myside. 4 years ago, when I was stuck in that bed of sky blue sheetswith different sizes of sachete liquids hanging around me, and withouthope of seeing the next day, you came around, and like a mother youstayed by me, and when the Bank got drained from refilling me, youbecame my survival bank. You donated those pints and piles that savedmy life. I promised to be faithful to you and never cheat again, butfew months after I left the bed, I returned to my old ways, forgettinghow you saved me.Few years later, I was in a big mess. My friends had set me up for abig trial, after they became jealous of my achievements. I was coolingoff in the nest of regrets, and I called your line, you wasted notime, not minding you caught me cheating on you the day before. Yetyou posted my bail, hugged me and took me out for lunch. But Iremained unchanged.I only remember your lines when I am in trouble and needed help,because I know you are highly connected and can make anything happenwith those connections of yours. I was very selfish. I always calledyou on days and nights when the weather was cold and I was very hornyof satisfaction; horny of success. You wasted no time, you romance mewith every depth and breath of love, care, kindness and grace, yet Ibetrayed you.Today, as I sat in my lonely bed reminiscing the past; how far I havegone, where I am and where I was headed. I realised that all I am today is because you had hands in them. I couldn't have boasted ofwhat I have today if you were never there for me, more especially yougave all to me.In that moment of realisation, tears dropped from my eyes, I felt theweight of my betrayal, my unfaithfulness, my overall attitude towardsyou; I felt ashamed of myself.in the voice of a repentant soul, I say"I am sorry Lord, please in your infinite mercy forgive me of myshortcomings. I am so grateful of your grace and miracles in my life.For all the time I cheated on your love, all the time I betrayed ourunending friendship. Forgive me Lord"In his hands I find peace and everlasting love.#DedicatedToTheMostHigh

Augustus Bill

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