But it seems all my prayers have been in vain because things are getting out of hand, with mu husband, and his family getting impatient with my childlessness. But who can blame them? Lanre has been very supportive and despite pressure from his family to get another wife, he has stood by me but there is a limit to how long he can cope with the situation.
'Can God ever forgive me for killing my babies?'
Do you think a woman who several abortions as a single lady still stands the chances of having babies when she is married?
I must say I brought this predicament on myself because when I was much younger, I had committed a series of abortions and I think God is punishing me for the way I lived. When I was in the university, due to peer pressure, I engaged in what we called 'Aristo' runs and in the process, and removed them all.
The last one almost claimed my life and the doctor who treated me told me in clear terms that if I had another abortion, the chances of my getting a baby in future would be very slim. And since then, I was very careful and was always on preventive pills.
When Lanre and I got married, we talked about having four children and we looked forward to welcoming our babies but now, that dream has become a pipe dream. A prophetess also revealed to me that I killed all the children I would have had and that the babies are angry with me and I would not have a child of my own.
I know there is nothing God cannot do as I have confessed all my sins and begged for His forgiveness but my situation still remains the same.
Is there anyone out there with a solution to my problems? I await your responses.
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